This Is What Happened When She Drives You Nuts

I lost it. I tried to be cool but maybe because things are pretty hectic in life as well as in the office, I just could not contain my anger anymore :(..

05/01/2010: I received a call at about 12.30 from Uncle Pete the transporter. He sounded panic as he couldn't find Nadia anywhere at the school canteen (that's the meeting point of the children which he picks up). God knows how I felt then. My face went numb and words buzz in my ears thereafter. Uncle Pete hung up after assuring me that he's gonna try to find Nadia and update me ASAP. My world spun.
I asked myself again and again why the hell did I go to the office when in actual fact my leave for that day had been cleared. In less than a minute, I received another call from Uncle Pete. He sounded so relieve when reporting that Nadia has been found. She was wandering around the school canteen, trying to find Uncle Pete.

What I felt: I was not angry with her at all. Worry sick is more like it. 

06/01/2010: I found out from my maid and Bard that she borrowed her friend RM1.00 to buy drink at the canteen. How did we catch her? She brought the drink back and gave it to Amsyhar. She also brought back a bottle of mineral water. I asked her many many times, how much did she really owe her friend. She kept on insisting RM1.00. How can you buy 2 drinks at RM1.00? The last time I checked that canteen, a box of soya bean milk was sold at RM1.20!

What I felt: I was not angry with her still. The thing that I'm quite upset is the fact that she borrow from others and she bought herself a cold mineral water drink. She has her drinks & food brought from home everyday and she hardly eats and drinks. But still, I was not angry.

06/01/2010: After checking her bag, I found that she lost her pencil case. It's a Barbie pencil case mind you. I bought it because she likes it so much. It doesn't cost me hundreds and the contents are not that full, but the fact that she lost it really ticks me. She said that she might have left it in surau (they went to surau for Agama today).

What I felt: So angry! But I didn't smack her or anything like that. I just told her how upset I was. She cried (naturally) and said that she accidentally left it. My heart softens after hearing her admitting her fault. I drove to the stationery store nearby and get her an al-cheapo pencil case, an al-cheapo ruler and a tiny eraser. Pencil? I have plenty at home.

So, I'm trying get use to the fact that she might be losing things more in times to come. I have to accept the fact that despite I'm being upset and angry with Nadia, she'll still gonna hug me and kiss me just a few seconds after I scolded her. Kids forget so easily. Haiz...